Mummy's LOVE

:)

Mum just called just now.

Little formal 'how are you's...

Results and studies and all...

Home alone? :S

AND, the part i love most :) funny mumbles of 'i love you's.

haha, sorry lah. it's our 'stoic family syndrome' okay. we are not mushy-fushy lovey-dovey brady bunch type. but we still feel the love!

...HOLY COW mummy i miss you sooooo much!!!!

sighs. even shed a few pearls of tiny tears. :(

held back the tide of sobs.

then i thought of daddy, and kak and bro and sis and doggies and home.

i need some family lurrrve. :( :(

My Little Precious

Looking through the pics in my phone,

I stumbled upon this....


MY LITTLE PERRRRYYYYY (who's half blind from old age oredi :( SO SAD!)

after shredding the papers Janice couldn't stop feeding him with -_-" lols. he even got so excited from it :S hahaha. and, my dad came home...HORROR UPON HORRORS, found shredded paper ALL OVER THE FLOOR! (which we cleaned up, anyways) oh, no idea what happened to the vid tho. was SOOO cute. lols. can't find it! grrh.

i miss my doggies. :(

Yet Another Strange Occurence

I find my subconscious really weird lah.

Just last night, while i was in a deeeeep sleep, had bits and pieces of this video pop into my head. Could make out all the lyrics for some reason! But the part that caught my attention the most was the chorus. What a beautiful song. Sigh. Hadn't heard it for over 2/3 years?? yeahp.

So i made a mental note to download it in the morning. which i am, now. :p

What i distinctly remembered was...

"Then i see you standing there,
Wanting more from me.
And all I can do is try"

YEAP! by Nelly Furtado. :)

But before i could get to any other part of the song, i woke up -__-" and the music shattered. :( and then i couldn't conjure up a single thing about it anymore! even forgot the tune. sighs.

Is my subconscious trying to tell me something??

Or am i just beyond random??

lols.

Give the song a listen! It's great :)

Rabbit Hunt

Ms. Mucha Lucha has yet again escaped!!!! ugh. despite my efforts, blocking up the hole in the fence so she couldn't go through it.

till i found...a HOLE IN THE GROUND!!! -__-" prison break, rabbit style.

so after the whole of last night not seeing her around, and to my horror, till tonight, i decided to go around in search of her.

(left a trail of bananas but no outcome)

i found her in my neighbour's garden hibernating in bliss and peace.

tried to use banana (again) to lure her in, but this time around, she got SMARTER!! offered her a piece and she SUPER QUICKLY grabbed it and ran to a safe spot a gabillion steps away from me. lols! but poor ole rabbit, no hands. could just snatch it from under her nose. :p sad, sad. so anyways, she refused to follow the banana! (at this point i bet she just thought 'it wasnt worth it') hahaha. which made me question...

WHAT IS SO BAD ABOUT OUR HOUSE?!
WHAT is so good about the neighbour's?!

:(

lols. okay, probably the abundance of beautiful, colourful flowers that attract rabbits i guess. WHICH is kinda the big x-factor luring innocent little bunnies to their magical and fantasy-filled garden. -_-"

evil.

oh, the worst part was when i had no choice but to grab her lah. :( felt soooo bad. but somehow she was so...caught up in her dormant and blissful state that she din kick or scratch me. lol! but i know her heart was racing like speedracer liddat. :( anyways, brought her in and pet her for over an hour. during which i found out.......STROKING THE EARS IS A TOTAL TURN ON FOR BUNNIES!!!!!

totally.

she'd shudddddddddder and chatter her teeth in pleasure. hahahaha. no kiddin'. but she was so happy that she could practically sleep in my arms. lol. eyes half closed already. but TOO BAD. i had to pee too badly. besides, was so scared SHE'D pee on me from all that shivering. haha.

i wish on EVERY star in the cosmos that she won't find another way of escaping. sighs. not until my sis gets back :p lol!

that's all for updates on mucha...great escaper no.II

:)

peace out, y'all!

Hansen and Gretel

This is the real-life fairy tale of Hansen and Gretel....

lured by sweet things to the evil witch's gingerbread house. muahahahahaha.

But, this time, I am the witch :p and guess who hansel/gretel is???

none other than MUCHA LUCHA our house pet aka mucha-lucha (the cartoon character) lookalike aka black and white rabbit aka suki's lesbian spouse.

she is the CUTEST little thing!!!

and a bit annoying too -_-"

keeps running away from home :( in search of sweet things to steal off and eat from the neighbour's bush i think. and it's really really difficult to look for her (bush too thick -_-)

SO, about two days ago after been missing 6 hours or so, she magically materialized somewhere near the house. so as to save myself the effort of ATTEMPTING to catch her (she's one really paranoid lil rabbit), i used a banana to lure her in. gave her ONE tiny little bite...and she couldn't resist!! MUAHAHAHA. practically followed me all the way home. oh, yeah. she really did. through the gate and all. :)

and just a while ago...got home and found her missing YET AGAIN! and it was just too dark to go in search of her. what did i do??? i left a TRAIL of bananas. lols!! little pieces of bananas from the bush leading to our gate.

ta di dum,

1 hour later?? went outside and found her standing outside the gate!!! communicating in rabbit language to suki through the fence. :p

so amazing, right?

she is THE greediest little pig i've ever seen in my life!!! hahaha. but it's good. works to our advantage :p can make her do anth niah as long as got smt sweet. but most of all...CRANBERRIES are proven completely irresistable!! i think she can even be trained to do flips on command, given cranberries everytime she did. lol! she'd be willing to, confirm!

haha, the amusing lives of our rabbits :p


p.s. POOR CAGED CHICKENS!!! :( sigh. watching jamie's fowl dinners -_-" bloody.

o.O

Scoleciphobia.

The fear of WORMS.

Thats what i have.

WAILLLLL!!!!!

i tingle just at the THOUGHT of seeing that blasted worm worming its way on the wet concrete floor. YUCKUS! i am thoroughly disturbed!!!!

yuck yuck yuck yuck. sooooooo disgustingggg.

wanna puke from its PINK, THIN, LONG-ness...its super yucky movements. so squirmy and sick. BLEH. *shivers*

horrible longitudinal and circular muscles contracting and relaxing, contracting, relaxing. ewwwwwwwwww. man, why can't they have NORMAL muscles?!

this brings me back to the time i found two worms, TWO!!! in my TOILET BOWL.

imagine my shock and horror. almost fainted, seriously! blood literally rushed to my head. ugh. sick sick sick. n i could see clearly their little HORNS (omg! they have HORNS!!!) on their BLACK UGLY BODIES. yuckewwsickbleh (ultimate expression for yuckiness). oh and that's not the worst part -_-" in the toilet bowl was SOMEBODY'S leftover PEE because he did not flush the toilet!! (which i think was the reason why those stupid worms ended up there anyways. SO NASTY! yucky smelly worms only want to sit in/relax in/breathe in/absorb-using-their-atrociously-long-and-therefore-uber-absorbant-bodies equally revolting liquid substances. NO WONDER LAHHHH! at this point i was equally or even more repulsed by the pee. ok no, so not.

oh yeah. so i ran out of the toilet like i was fleeing from the devil.

and could not bring myself to STEP into the toilet. o.O my phobia was, at that point, full-blown and totally way irrational. eeeeeaaaakkkk!!! everytime i moved i could imagine/imaginarily feel their repulsive worm-legs OR LACK THEREOF coming in contact with my leg!!!! UGH. NASTY!

yeah, so FINALLY (30 minutes later...) i worked up the courage to flush the toilet!!! (AND GONE WERE THE TOILET BOWL-DOMINATING WORMS)...

which led to another problem: trusting the toilet bowl to be totally worm-free enough to sit on it -__-"

that took 2 days. LOL!

the whole time i sat on the toilet bowl, i shivered uncontrollably. and imagined the worms. :S

so i revisited my past. i went potty training. haha! technically not lah. i'd just sit there with my pants on so i could get used to my toilet again (: I LOVE MY TOILET! (we bond a lot) spend most of my mornings in there anyways. lollers.

yeahp. this is my therapy session.

REEEEEAAAALLLLY want to get over this.

but it's haunting me. stupid worm. eeeeeeeack. whyyyy did i have to see it?!?!?!?! ugh.

got to GOT TO not be afraid of them anymore...stewwpid irrational fear -_-"

so perfect

WHAT a perfect song!!

loooooove them - the hush sound.

amazing.

wowing.

perfect.

The Hush Sound- The Artist

*this is not the vid*

Addiction

Look at this seemingly innocent bear....

SO NOT!!!!

don't be deceived by its cutesy happy face.

PURE ADDICTION!!!!

grrh. as i'm typing, i'm finishing a WHOLE CONTAINER-FULL of it. -_-"

not to mention the constant buying it on every trip to Safeway.

munch. munch. munch. yummers tho :)

Look at the face of a pure addict


looks real bad, huh?

believe it!

i love em both.

lodge school our school

our school of fun and pleasure too

lalalalala

since i am joan's bestest friend, i am given the privilege to post as many posts as i want. hehehe.

oklah since janice emo, i am gonna dedicate one of my posts to her.

dear janice,

life aint no bed of roses. i know how much u miss me. but do not worry i am sure we will meet up again one day. it may not be tml or the day after or the 3 day after but it will come. dont miss me too much as how i am missing u. you have been a great friend even though u aren't a good a friend as i am. hmmm, ok thats it. enjoy your life.

haihh life is a suchhh a bore. i neeed to get back to kuching with kuching people and kuching food and kuching atmosphere. 6 months. wait for me. mama and papa, i miss you.

look who's back. back again.

today i would like to blog about what we did.

pei jie is here for holidays from perth.

so today we all come to joan na's house to cook and bake a tira miss you cake.

no joke.

then jon elliot alex and desmond came over too.

they ate and they left.

now i am blogging and you are reading.

peace out yo.

Want a Cuppa?

A rare, random sight to behold...

in my hand a cup of tea. sitting. thinking.

YES, i am THINKING.

about how much i've changed over the months since sec school ended. now, haven't we all?

instead of resisting distance and change associated with leaving one another, desperately trying to bridge that gap between us...desperately trying to gain what we once had, trying to rebuild the past...

we now embrace change. i have embraced change. so what if everyone's different?

it is no longer an issue.

:)

FYI

I'd like to declare that I AM NOT A BIMBO.

not that any1 suggested i was...

just that i've just read thru my previous posts. and...holy cow.

never knew i used words like 'heeee'/'tee hee'/'teeee' so incessantly, thus hinting the possibility of me being a bimbo. LOL.

so, i am not :)

other totally random declarations: I AM TOTALLY HAPPY.

with the way life is at the moment. which is...slow-moving and totaly non-progressing. nice.

kinda makes me sound like a sloth, doesnt it??

...great.

Amazing Stuff

starting with the most important thing that's happened today...

the EARLIEST AWAKENING OF JOANIE. (since the hols, of course)...at 7.30. snoozed the alarm TWICE, btw. haha. guess where i was off to so early on an absolutely glorious sunday morning?...

to church of course! lols.

once again, fashion crisis in the making. :S went to church to help out cos it's non other than the MOST special day of all; the day we receive the holy communion :) SO, being a waitress/choir participant/servant, i was required to wear a RED shirt and jeans. lucky, lucky i wore jeans (nth else to choose from, actually. hahahaha) yeah. totally forgot about the e-mail. so guess wad i wore? a GREEN shirt -_-" how totally different from red is THAT?! but lucky, lucky once again :D the decor (and by decor, i mean the little banner) was red and green. so chun right?! god loves me :)

so, onto the most important part, pastor tim's cleared up lots of things for me.

mostly, that taking the holy communion isn't only for those who are baptized.

yes, i know i know. totally contradicts the catholic way. which was how i came to think that if i wasn't baptized, i couldn't eat the holy bread/drink the wine (which was juice, btw). but no no no. he explained that in the bible, even those considered 'outsiders' were sharing the bread and wine. and that they joined in the passover feast. SO, it was about remembering jesus's sacrifice for us, and as a symbol of us being free from all that binds us (through the feast thing, their last feast). :) i know it's vague, but im trying to cut short as much as possible. lols.

after many many hours spent in church (which i totally enjoyed btw, great service and great lunch), wee and i headed off to dfo for some shopping and cousinly bonding! lol.

totally totally happy with what i got!! (even if it's just three things :p)

first off, whatsitsname. ALDOS. zero idea what it is. haha. BUT totally lovin' it. bought this pretty-lookin' CHARM BRACELET! (like, finalllyyyyy)

10 bucks

i know i owes wanted a super chunky one, but hey. this is chunky enough :p

next off, OH.MY.GOOOODNESS. we were in luck! apparently it was the last day of sale (wee, i trust ur ears. haha) in GUESS. practically everything was 70% OFF! yeahp. u heard right. store-wide 70% off! went in to see the whole store turned upside down. lol. long cue in front of the cash register, i tell ya.

anyhoo, initally wanted to buy this super ugly mini-guess bag. which was HOLY COW super ugly. haha. didn't think so when i first held it. but thank god i din buy it :S theennn wanted this aloha-flowery-beachy-pink guess bag. WHICH was nice. to me. haha. but lucky, lucky once again :) found THIS amazing bag. which i decided to buy after due consideration AND female instincts AND wee's totally unquestionable logic. hahaha.

colour looks totally off, but really looks GREAT in real life :)

seriously love this chain, which i totally stole off another bag. lol! but HEY. it's cos someone else took MINE :O

not only that, though! bought these shoes

totally beautiful wedge heels, no???

mummy don't kill me. :D HOWEVER...

thanks to the totally amazing sale,


yeah HUHHHHHHH. amazing right?! lols. wee saved $256! totally worth it :)

all in all, amazing day indeed! hehe.

p.s. please excuse the lala-ness for the time being. lols. girly time mah! haha.

Boredom in a whole new light

Boredom isn't really the same when you're all alone.

lols.

i think i've just experienced boredom in it's most raw and pure and unrefined state. totally.

like, before, always had my sisters here. so it wasn't so quiet and so boring around here. haha. now they're back in kuching and i'm here and i SO wanna peng.

okay, so i think NOW is the time when my butt's broken and i have stars in my eyes. lols. probably on monday though, that i start going out...

because...

i'm on a new marathon! :) this time, the office. FINALLY, the full 4 seasons :D so, yeah, the last time i watched season 4, had zero idea what was going on. but NOW, whoa. i am so in the light! hahaha. ok, technically that phrase can't be used on 'the office marathons'. lols. but hey, at least i know what's going on now :p

even if it means watching the whole of season 4 all over again. :S

i'm not so desperate. i swear.

The Post Scriptum

actually bought FRESH VEGES from safeway today, tee hee!

oh, 2 days of walking to safeway (it's pretty far, btw) has been my sad, SAD form of exercise. but hey, at least i walked ey? :D

omg. i can only imagine, 50 years from now...Story of My Life starring joanie as FATSO living on her bed. god forbid!!! janice, when that time comes, save me please. hahahaha. if the situation arises, i give you ALL PERMISSION to do whatever you want to whip me into shape!! (so means that u can't ever, EVER be fatso too, not that u'd ever anyways :p) yeah, u can so totally starve me until i walk to the kitchen or perform unorthodox diets/rituals u pick up from the internet. lols, ok depending on the seriousness of the situation...

TOTALLY STRAYING FROM MY P.S. ugh.

anyhoo, bought totally yummers fresh spinach and rocket and beetroot (in packet of course) from the supermarket. woo hoo! so now i won't die from malnutrition. lols. PLUS bought this burgen (the bread super endorsed by the biggest loser fanclub or something...no, actually the show really endorses it. LOL) soy&linseed? rye? bread. not sure what i bought anymore. but the point is, it's SUPAH healthy ANNNDDDD it tastes great! woo hoos :)

but one thing really strange about me, i totally enjoy healthy food. like, seriously. i'd always think they taste amazing anyways. then people tell me they suck. hahaha. e.g. weetbix (omg, love it) janice would go EEWWW. i'd say yummers! :p uhm, okay i think any1 woud love grainy bread...oh, i LOVE oats. like, really really love oats. well, till i fish up anymore healthy stuff from the banks of my very very murky memories, will tell all :D

p.p.s. what a long p.s. -_-"

p.p.p.s. wasn't meant to be that way. LOL. courtesy of scattermeabrainsymdrome ;)

Who would have thought?

...that 2 weeks of holiday is SO not short??

yeah, it's excruciating how boring it is here.

aiks.

at first, finding out all our holidays were only 2 weeks long, almost peng-ed from the shortness! haha. so it seemed. now it just won't end. LOL.

*foretelling: i'd beg to differ once school's started again*

haha, that's the way it is!

we want what we can't have. basic human nature.

ugh. i have to, HAVE TO get out of this house. lols, getting sick of mozart's turkish march now. it's been entertaining, for a while...but now that i can play it, nyeh. same goes for the whole piano, actually. so now, the old television and internet as sources of entertainment. sad.

well, i can say i brought all this upon myself. siiiigh. through my unwillingness to get out of bed and, of course, on my feet to get on the bus to go city, walk around in shopping complexes (dfo...tee hee! ultimate retail therapy location) or hang out with whoever's left here in melbourne or...watch a movie, something! hahaha. yes, i shall blame it all on my laziness...which should be blamed on old habits, really. :) just that i've always been this awfully anti person who'd rather stay holed up at home than doing anything else. hahahaha. (so i've mentioned -_-")

so anyways, this phase won't last for long though! good to say. heeee. it won't be long before i start getting cramps in my butt and stars in my eyes. THEN i'd start being social again!! :D

totally cool, right? CAN'T WAIT. :p

next time, SO won't think the only reasonable period for a holiday is 2 months -__-". i promise.

Speaking of which

the facade.

i see one so thick i don't know if it'd ever come off.

maybe it's denial.

only you know yourself.

Dodgy, dodgy!

ugh. WHY on earth did i decide to put that dodgy-looking, dodgy-tasting (although i din noe at the time), dodgy-FEELING sushi in my mouth?! grrh. SO DODGY!!!!!

all i can say is, desperate times call for desperate measures. -_-"

what is the connection between McD's, KFC and bread???

...THEY HAVE NO GREEEEN VEGETABLES IN THEM! gah. 2 days out of 7, ate mcd's and kfc..and yesterday, my whole day's menu consisted of bread and an apple (at least got apple lah. but still). heckkkk. SO, back to the dodgy sushi. it was HOOORRRRIIIIBBBLLLLEEEE (as expected lah, from its dodgy appearance) ughhh. cannot bliv i put such a foul thing into my bodeh! ugh. can't get over it, ever. bloody.

haha. anyhoooo, zhi en speaketh of the truth! i am indeed constipated to the max. so much for my little hopeful that eating mr. kentucky's famous fast food chicken had helped cure my bloatedness :(

simple chain reaction, really. heee. kfc = super salty = quadrupled water intake = super active bowel = constipation-free and totally happy joanie! or so i thought. -_-" totally left byproducts out btw ;)

so, remedies anyone?? for constipation, not dodgy sushis :)

shall never, EVER, enter a dodgy-looking place selling dodgy-looking food. gargh.



p.s. feel free to count how many times i've used the word 'dodgy'. LOL. it's the only perfect word to describe it anyways. hee.

my best friend.

yo wassup! my name is joan na and i suck.

hello. i'm joan na's best friend. sorry janice and han khee and whoever. but you see, joan na allows me to blog and not you guys. so, i am definitely joan's one and only best friend. =)

i'm dead bored. now i understand why people wants to blog. joan is dead bored too. thats why we are best friends. hmmm.. its so hard to blog. i think i'm gonna dedicate this post to my best friend, joan then.

joan wants to eat/watch 2 and a half men. she knows i am dead serious about blogging. she cant wait to eat. oh and joan na is constipated. shit my england damn bad.

anywayssss, i misss kuching. endofstory




-joan's best friend, zhieniscool.

Facades

Mind's completely taken over by DEXTAH for the moment. haha. just a mini-marathon tonight tho :) no 10 hour stunts like last time. took a 2-day sabbatical before. heee. is that even a sabbatical? LOL.

so, key thing in dexxtah would be: facades. yeahp, that's wad it's all about. knowing and coming to terms with your true self, stuff like that. who knew there was so much to learn from a serial killer? heh.

well, i'm sure everyone puts up a mask, at least once in their lives. maybe? or are there really people who could be as transparent as every1 would like to be? i'm sure I do! tee. be transparent, i mean. haha. workin' at it :p

i guess i tend to hide stuff a little too much. "selective sharing". lols. not that i don't trust people; i think i trust too much. but i've realized that i've never really shared much with any1. even with my closestS :) and i think it's time that i actually start opening up a liiiiiiiiittle bit more. heee. i don't know why...just felt the need to say things. lols! more than i used to, of course. guess 17 years of talking crap is really catching up on me. time for more meaningful conversations, people!

hey, i'm a deep person, alright??? hahaha. yeah, i ammm. like, totalleh. deep stuff goin' on in my mind. open your eyes, and you shall see. open your ears, and you shall listen. open your heart, and you shall feel :) okay, i admit that was random. but felt like saying it ;)



p.s. what a weird post. LOL. am posting it ANYWAYS. :O

So, I was Wrong

Rmb how i said dexter wasn't so nice anymore as he turned more human??

...I was wrong o.O

kudos to the writers of the show/book, man! haha, i ABSOLUTELY looove it :p good ending to season 2, definitely. tee hee!

great beginning, great ending! good stuuuffff. lols.

so awake now. starting to turn nocturnal :S no idea how i'm gna adjust to normal, human time again...been waking up after noon now. that's baadddd. totally messed up eating habits, thinking habits (if i ever had some) talking habits....all the habits lah. lol. so messed up!!! :o

...no wonder i've been getting weird dreams. gasp.