In all seriousness?

tonight's been coincidentally FULLL of romance. haha. love is in the air~

1st up, on tv was 'the wedding planner'..totally cliched if u ask me. =) despite the fact that matthew mcconaughey was in it. heh. but really lah, 'blah blah ur eyes, ur face...' just made me go -_-"

thennn, watched season finale of gossip girl. once again, lovey dovey things going on. new relationships, broken relationships. the likes.

so, now, on my wmp playlist - which is on random mode btw - love songs are blaring from the speakers at 2.30 in the morning. hrm. too much love to digest, maybe? as i'm starting to question the sincerity of all the sweet talk and supposedly super heart-melting mushy words.

quoting :
angus & julia stone - just a boy

"Girl you make me want to feel
Things I never felt before"

robbie williams: she's the one

"I was her she was me
We were one we were free"

alessandra safina & ewan mcgreggor: your song

no quotes needed, really. the whole song is basically one gigantic quote

so the question is, can guys really stick to thinking that about a girl for THAT long? songs seem to make it somewhat eternal, their sincerest innermost feelings about that someone. not stereotyping all guys lah, but it really seems like they're constantly infatuated, or, if not, thinking of being infatuated -_-" how long is long enough to make them want to write songs? haha. of course, music is a HUUUUGE plus in any guy =) really. can make a girl feel smitten all day long and get away with anything. lols. plus its great entertainment.

but no, seriously, it just shows a sensitive side to the guy, thus making them more appealing! haha.

SO, guys, if u cant play an instrument........heed my advice and pick one up now! smt like...guitar =P

the tree man

this poor guy's been suffering from this disease for 20 years. this is what he looked like:


courtesy of extremely severe warts that was left untreated for such a long time. made the hairs on my hand stand up.

Yearning

Now i know this is strange...

but i've been feeling this CRAVING for good music, like how people usually crave for food or attention. i am seriously yearning for great songs by great artists.

it's hard to describe how i feel now. it comes and goes, but it's pretty intense. is it even about music, seriously? strange.

right now my ears are pretty much glued to earphones. i am just LOOOOVING eskimo joe's album: black fingernails red wine. it's just absolutely flawless! unbelievably great music there. surprise, surprise....there are actually a number of superb aussie bands here. silverchair included =)

other things i'm loving: charles & eddie's 'would i lie to you'. duffy's 'mercy'. pete murray's 'better days'.

i think i'm addicted. is that what it is? depravation?

and it's been a long time since i've really really listened to songs...i need more, more, more!

Revelations

Sermon these past few months was on the book of revelations. and u noe...the same old things are repeated again and again...judgment is coming soon, prepare urselves so as to enter the kingdom of heaven.

Now i wonder, how far away am i from being exempted from rotting away in hell?

Cos i think i've come a long way, just not long enough.

Wayyyy back when (but not THAT long ago), i vaguely remember myself as an IMPOSSIBLY hot-tempered, selfish, foul-mouthed, disrespectful little kid.

Now i think i've changed. if not much, then just enough not to be deemed a total biatch. yet, i still notice the visible flaws in me.

And i know everyone has to meet their bad side once in a while, but it really upsets me when i start snapping at ppl or being super totally evil =(

very, VERY sad.

Right now i guess i'd have to work on my temper, temper! sensitivity as well. which i think are totally destructive. ON THE WAY TO GOODNESS I GO! =) take a last look at the old joannie, u'd be greeted by the new me!

Exclusiveness??

Here a question is raised:

Would we, the 11 of us, or would we not welcome the arrival of new additions?


And the answer is...and i'm pretty sure i can speak on behalf on the other 10, WELCOME TO THE CLUB!!! (the greatest in the world) :)

We're definitely not a group of hostile monkeys.


And i'm sure you'd enjoy ur time here with us, heh! while we attempt at being the most warm and loving family u've ever been in (aside from ur own). lols.

The person who's asked me this...

YOU KNOW WHO U ARE! ;)

Brain Malfunction

This is what my brain could have possibly looked like two days ago.


Due to intensive cheong-ing to complete just 2 (TWO!) paragraphs of my essay at 12 a.m. this morning, the size of my once-normal brain has most certainly diminished DRASTICALLY.

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I present to you, my (new and dwindled) brain.

p.s. i think i can relate to homer simpson now. D'OH!

All I Want to Do...

and am doing anyway, is curl up in my bed under my warm warm comforter and block out the world.

hormones surging through my veins, blocking any rationale in my being. just this very morning i lost my temper at my very VERY innocent bystander of a sister. poor her o.O

gloomy clouds, gray skies, pouring rain...just more elements adding to this DUNGEON OF DOOOOM feeling right here right now. am alone at home, finding things to do.

but absolutely loving the freedom to turn the music up as loud as possible, freedom to play the piano without feeling self-conscious, freedom to just...sleep in the silence.

my inspiration as of now: eskimo joe. do not be deceived by their very seemingly insubstantial band name. their songs are everything but. 'how does it feel' has gotta be the greatest song alive (:




sure, they don't have the looks or the name or the overwhelming fame. but hey, who needs more superficiality in the world?

Compassion

An event from the past week has really really changed how i view people.

briefly, this is what happened: girl from school, admitted to hospital and currently in coma.

life is unpredictable. shit happens. inevitable. but still all in God's plans. even though it was meant to happen, you cannot help but feel upset by it. and i don't even know who she is. cannot possibly fathom what the family is going through.

and so, to all those people out there, saying how horrible your life is, how your life is NOT WORTH LIVING due to petty, absolutely fixable issues, PLEASE. STOP. FEELING. SORRY. FOR. YOURSELF. definitely would not lend you an inch of my pity. seriously, whoever out there's contemplating suicide over stupid things or if you really hated your life, think of HOW MUCH THIS GIRL WOULD LOVE TO TRADE PLACES WITH YOU.

i am clearly still very upset about this.

My Week in a Nutshell

Thinking of HOI assignment has mutated me like so:


Bro + sis-in-law's visit to Melbourne has cheered me up like so:


Mom's box of goodies...no, BADDIES has left me feeling.....


somebody, PLEEEEEASE. save me! from the box.

To Build an Empire

Step 1: Emulate this guy

Ignore: Baby hanging from leg. irrelevance, not to mention sight too disconcerting.
Note: Stern youthful face, extended forefinger of a Mr. Augustus Caesar himself.
Application: 1.Vanity. preserve youth in form of statues (thousands of)
2. Fierce drive to CONQUER. assignments.


Step 2: Debate about these guys

Note: Tiberius and Gaius Gracchus.
Debate: Friends or enemies of freedom?

Methinks: 'Freedom' totally irrelevant to cause of fight for rights of plebs (public of Rome) by passing agrarian law in battle against poverty.


Step 3: Take up HISTORY OF IDEAS in college upon finding oneself following steps 1&2

Note: 1. Study hard, well on the way to building empire. (nerd!)
2. HOI unfortunately compulsory, even as onself doesn't bother with steps.

Action: Become successor of Gracchi brothers. Fight for one's freedom from oppression. Form anti-HOIassignment league with common public, pass laws against government, overthrow government. Start tyrannical rule. NOT die like Tiberius Gracchus.


Step 4: Know it is all a dream

Note: Finding oneself reduced to doing research for HOI, as such:

There are actually 2 more books, forgot to add them

NOTE- TAKING!

Action: Procrastination.


Conclusion: No such empire coming up. will remain subjected to lousy-butt assignments doing lousy-butt research. all year long. and for years to come...

KILL ME.

WHATTTTTTT THE HECKKKK

mood: unimaginably ANNOYED


if u were in my literature tutorial with alexandra (omg cant stand her sometimes), she'd ask u to ANALYSE my SUPER huge and caps-ed and RED colored word...to derive some lousy connotations.

e.g. red color = ANGER, DANGER, BLOOD (CONNOTATION: DEATH) -_-" sigh. sometimes i just do not understand why we are put thru all this crap. in the form of literature. siiigggghhhh.

ok this is a bit unfair lah, to alexandra + literature (lols). act lit is ok lah. the poems not bad, the stories (sorry, montag, but i absolutely frikkin hate u so i nv finished the book) better than kino and the pearl lah. haha. bloody kino and the pearl.

SO, this is about my lousy-butt INTERNET CONNECTION!!! GRRRR. i am SO SO SO annoyed by it nowww. so unbelievably slow! GRRRRRRR. thats all i wanted to say lah. LAUYA!!!!


p.s. not against literature.