Dear You,

It's okay to let it all out.
But don't rush it; healing takes time.
And it's okay to feel what you feel.
Even after all this time, when you think everyone else has gotten it handled.
You're you.
I know words aren't doing much for you lately...
Words are just for you to know that you have friends around you.
Family in community.
They're just a reminder that there are people who care and would give you all the help you need.
In all that seems hopeless, hold hope.
YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY SIGNIFICANT.

What an eye-opener indeed

Went on the 'soup van' last night.
In essence it's a van...
that goes around the city to give food to the poor/homeless.
The food that go into it are leftovers from treat vans selling sandwiches and sweets to corporate people. SOUP was homemade. sure, it's not the best-tasting soup in the world...it didn't take 1 hour to make, but it sure was a labor of love. and, get this, one lady makes banana bread EVERY WEEK to give to those in need. the look on their faces when they hear you've got dessert sure tells you how much it means to them.
Anyways.
I was on the van that went 'inside' which is for the people who need food but live in shelters.
very very shabby shelters.
Imagine living your life in a room...sharing a shower and a toilet with everyone else on that floor. every single day.

I think it's been a very very long time ago since they've felt embarrassed about getting help from volunteers. I want to know their stories. Who they've been; what led them here. I'm sure no one wants to be in this situation...and even if they don't seem all that hopeful, surely they are hoping. And i pray that there's enough hope to go around. Some of them seem like they're so ready to surrender the rest of their lives to this fate. i hope its not the case. but it's easy for me to say; how can i possibly fathom what they are going through?

But...the most confronting situation was when we handed out blankets and food to those sleeping at the power station. in the cold. there was this man who was SO. YOUNG. and he kinda looks like hoobastank's lead singer. ok he REALLY does! so anyways. u can easily imagine him being a regular guy...construction worker, office worker, whatever. and here he was. sleeping on a bench in the winter chill. taking soup from a van. it was so heartbreaking how he was so so so so grateful for what we were doing for them.
i'm not even sure i can be that truly grateful for a bed. blanket. warmth. food. not until i am in his place. it's just so easy for us to take the little things for granted. cliche. but true.

And what's worse....i never knew these shelters housing all these people in need were in the city. right opposite from where i go to uni everyday. all these big townhouses were inside housing so many ppl. it's easy for ppl to say 'oh, at least the government's giving them a place to stay and ppl knock on their doors to give them food'...that their lives are good. but heck. who in the world wants to be in their position anyways? can you even survive on the barest of essentials?

What a look into the world i had never come close to seeing. What i never knew was so widespread in this city.

Kudos to the dedicated soup makers who do this every day.

What comes next???

To all the A LEVELS babies out there,

all the best from joanie for your final exams!!!!!

And let there be the birth of YET MORE doctors, EVEN MORE engineers,...A chemist (lol mel u special special) and dentists!!

Lol you can finally fit in. u'll be in uni, like the rest of us muahahaha!!! (except cyn HAHAHA. kiddins. cyn ur turn will come soooon toooo)


p/s josh, i'm sure u're so used to the *certain someone eh hem* stealing the limelight loooool
p/p/s janny, thank me for not putting up the 5c group photo. with ur tiny head squashed beneath the massive throng of people. and the tomato-ness of your face which cracks me up big time :p

I love the sound of horses' hooves on cobbled streets

Just finished watching SWEENEY TODD,
tale of the barber from hell.


And i THOROUGHLY enjoyed it!!!!

Perhaps all my expectations (or lack thereof) contributed to this lol.

Everyone said it was crap waaad.

Yea, but i still wanted to watch it anyways cause of...ya noe...undying curiosity and all. :p

Somehow before popping the dvd in, i kinda expected myself to like it cause everyone around me hated it with a passion :(

I LOVED the songs,

Story was quite meh but okay la.

Johnny Depp was quite meh also but okay la also.

And the poor dood i only remembered as professor snape throughout the whole movie was erh. snape-ey.

Okay, now i wonder why i was so excited over it. hahahaha.

it really WAS a great movie! although i can't seem to find the reasons why anymore :S

Just gotta say, though, that eating pasta whilst watching it is NOT really the brightest of ideas.

Oh, one other thing...the little kid in the movie looked like a miniature version of ZHI EN'S BROTHAAAA. oh my gosh. no kiddin. go watch and see!

Damn "ON" tonight la

No kiddin.

Lemme show u THE ULTIMATE most AWESOMEST picture in the world. universe. galaxy.

PICTURE OF THE CENTURY la!!!!

Sigh my heart is melting and pooling into a puddle on the floor.

A warm, mushy, throbbing puddle.

And it smells a lot like LURRRRVVVEEEE!!!!!


WAAAAHHHH i want to cry.

He is SO adorable!!!! (the baby, not the father hahahaha) 8 months old and no auntieS to coo over him incessantly :(

Not that he needs any more of those auntie-esque cheek-pinching and "AIYOOO ZHANG DAAA LE LA!!"

FEAR NOT!!! I am hip hop auntie who will refrain from being....overly auntie :)

I loooooove you little tyke!!!

Will see you soooooon :D


p/s WHAT did i say about him growing humongous????? not that i mind la he's damn cute that way hehehe
p/p/s yes i do realize i sound like a sadly deprived auntie....very much so indeed.
p/p/p/s despite PASSING (on the dot LOL!), i STILL fail -_-" what the crap.

Further signs of impending mumminessssss

Uh oh, this is a bad sign.

The fact that 2 hours of physio lecture DID NOT kill me because we were talking about BABIES means that it's time that i go all mummy again!!!!!!!

WAIL.

But really lah. for the first time since i'd started uni, this physio lecture was BY FAR the most useful and most interesting ever!

Sigh, babies are so cute.

Makes me miss the little one back hooome!!!


...Although he wouldn't be so little by the time i get home this year :S

Oh, not as little as he was last yr la.

Cos he's kinda...big. in a cute baby way of course :)