An Ode to Sigmund Freud

this, people, is mr. sigmund freud.
...whom i had to read countless chapters on back in my Trinity year for some HOI essay thingamajig.
and frankly i think he's just some crazy bugger.
he's a looney one, really. hahaha.
but he's suggested that dreams are repressed memories that the brain brings into consciousness - without us being fully conscious. basically this is the gist of it. and he says that it reflects personality.
what if he's right??
then what would that say about me??

i've always had freaky dreams. the freakiest would be the ones which involve me killing people.
..especially people i know.
like, murdering people in the most vivid and gruesome way imaginable.
there are 3 that i can really remember. and they disturb me to the core.
i not only see myself murdering innocent people, i see the splattering blood and the disfigurement it ensues.
and in these 3 cases, they are extreeeeemely vivid.
just last night i dreamt of shooting a girl ( i think i knew her ) in the face multiple times with a hand gun. i remember feeling really relieved upon finding the gun so i could shoot her. she'd have holes in her face and it'd be streaming with blood but she just.wouldn't.die. so i kept shooting her. LOL. and STILL she would still be coming towards me!!!
i don't know at what point i woke up, but i sure felt glad to wake. somehow this time i didn't feel guilty, like i did for the last 2 "murders".
somehow they all involve using some weapon...in one, the grass cutter blade which i'd used to dismember many many people in trinity's bull paddock (hahaha). another one, using a blunt pole to stab this girl in the face  till she had no face. and i'd be overcome with guilt. then extremely relieved to wake up.

SO WHAT DOES THIS SAY?!?!?!?
am i evil????
will i become evil????
did someone try to kill me way back when so now my unconscious is warning me when i can finally defend myself?

or is this all just due to insignificantly random brain activity?
hhhrrrrrrrrrrrrmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

owells. -_-"
just don't get on my nerves and maybe i wouldn't dream of killing u
:p