I've just been shown something...about a person's past.
and now i can't stop thinking.
about how i've been living with this person for SO LONG.
walking past her, talking to her, yet never really building a really significant relationship with her.
despite and apart from the god-given relationship we have.

Now i'm wondering how i could have been so oblivious to the things going on around me.
Oblivious to her troubles.
Oblivious to her pent up emotions.
for many many many years now.

It's one thing to learn to let your guard down,
and another to not try by saying that it's just not in our nature.
maybe we all should've been more supportive. closer.
i know i could have.

So it all comes down to building relationships.
ours just wasn't really there.
that, i know.
because that, i feel.

Now, i know. and shit, it's only now that i sorta get why you do the things you do. did the things u did.
and why u are the way u are.
i hope it's just not too late to change the way things are.
but somehow i do see a difference between now and then.

The point is i'm sorry.
that i've always been impatient with u.
that we've never had what u needed.
but it's good we have what we have. it counts for something, at least.
and most of all i'm sorry you had to lug all this shit around for so long.

but i know things would be for the better :)