An Ode to Sigmund Freud

this, people, is mr. sigmund freud.
...whom i had to read countless chapters on back in my Trinity year for some HOI essay thingamajig.
and frankly i think he's just some crazy bugger.
he's a looney one, really. hahaha.
but he's suggested that dreams are repressed memories that the brain brings into consciousness - without us being fully conscious. basically this is the gist of it. and he says that it reflects personality.
what if he's right??
then what would that say about me??

i've always had freaky dreams. the freakiest would be the ones which involve me killing people.
..especially people i know.
like, murdering people in the most vivid and gruesome way imaginable.
there are 3 that i can really remember. and they disturb me to the core.
i not only see myself murdering innocent people, i see the splattering blood and the disfigurement it ensues.
and in these 3 cases, they are extreeeeemely vivid.
just last night i dreamt of shooting a girl ( i think i knew her ) in the face multiple times with a hand gun. i remember feeling really relieved upon finding the gun so i could shoot her. she'd have holes in her face and it'd be streaming with blood but she just.wouldn't.die. so i kept shooting her. LOL. and STILL she would still be coming towards me!!!
i don't know at what point i woke up, but i sure felt glad to wake. somehow this time i didn't feel guilty, like i did for the last 2 "murders".
somehow they all involve using some weapon...in one, the grass cutter blade which i'd used to dismember many many people in trinity's bull paddock (hahaha). another one, using a blunt pole to stab this girl in the face  till she had no face. and i'd be overcome with guilt. then extremely relieved to wake up.

SO WHAT DOES THIS SAY?!?!?!?
am i evil????
will i become evil????
did someone try to kill me way back when so now my unconscious is warning me when i can finally defend myself?

or is this all just due to insignificantly random brain activity?
hhhrrrrrrrrrrrrmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

owells. -_-"
just don't get on my nerves and maybe i wouldn't dream of killing u
:p

I've just been shown something...about a person's past.
and now i can't stop thinking.
about how i've been living with this person for SO LONG.
walking past her, talking to her, yet never really building a really significant relationship with her.
despite and apart from the god-given relationship we have.

Now i'm wondering how i could have been so oblivious to the things going on around me.
Oblivious to her troubles.
Oblivious to her pent up emotions.
for many many many years now.

It's one thing to learn to let your guard down,
and another to not try by saying that it's just not in our nature.
maybe we all should've been more supportive. closer.
i know i could have.

So it all comes down to building relationships.
ours just wasn't really there.
that, i know.
because that, i feel.

Now, i know. and shit, it's only now that i sorta get why you do the things you do. did the things u did.
and why u are the way u are.
i hope it's just not too late to change the way things are.
but somehow i do see a difference between now and then.

The point is i'm sorry.
that i've always been impatient with u.
that we've never had what u needed.
but it's good we have what we have. it counts for something, at least.
and most of all i'm sorry you had to lug all this shit around for so long.

but i know things would be for the better :)

Let me present...

THE WAR ZONE

this is as organized as it gets.

LOL.

Source of my Stresssss Part II

So, the thing about exams that i'm MOST afraid of (at the moment) is......

PRAC EXAM

like, seriously.

:S :S :S
loom loom loooom.

how, under pressure, am i able to distinguish the friggin muscles and rmb off the top of my head what they do and where they attach?!?!

i'm sorry but people who know me would know I DO NOT DO WELL UNDER PRESSURE.

haihhhhhh.

an chua hoooo, u tell meeeeeeeeee. cry.

k i'm going to hole up in my room and never come out. LOL. till after. or something.

oh wait. i WILL come out. to get some poor soul to be patient muahahahahaaaaaaa. maybe i'll practise on the rabbit's nonexistant muscles. :S

Source of My Stressssss

Just ONE look at this:

and this:

and this:

and this:

is enough to make me suffer on the toilet bowl.

HAHAHAHAHAHA sorry i damn gross.



note to self: absolutely HAVE to stop posting up super unglam photos of myself NYAAABBBB

Love-Hate Relationship

Dude.

I love you, yet i HATE you. sometimes.

I mean, u're not so special but you ARE my first.

Should i chuck you and replace you NOW, or should i wait till you break down again?

Sigh.

Some days, you just disappoint meeeeeeee.

Note: For anyone who bothers reading fine prints, i am talking about an inanimate object okay. Just in case some of you ppl decide that i am hiding a BOYFRIEND up my sleeve. NOSIREEEEEEE.

The Best of My ITUNES :)

Erm. So...The side of me that is insanely passionate about music has been, i dno, AWAKENED(momentarily) by some of the songs I've been listening to lately on my iPod...as usual. I get phases, 'kay??? Yeah so I'm here to share some with ya'll :)

And I shall sidetrack before I even begin. LOL!

I've been suuuuper duper hooked on the song "Nature Boy" and i thought I'd do a little comparison between the two versions that I'd downloaded.

So it's NAT KING COLE's version of Nature Boy VS. DAVID BOWIE's version (as heard in Moulin Rouge).

I'll start with the one i favour, personally lah. haha. which is david bowie's. His version is slower to that of Cole's, and he did it in a totally different key as well.

But what makes it SO SUPERB is the musicality. He sets this...slightly eery and melancholic feel which is so awesome. Uses mostly violins which come in two different parts but which blend perfectly well together, accompanying the melody so, so, so, so well. When i listen to this song, i tend to close my eyes and listen closely in to the orchestral parts...just to listen to how greatly the instruments and the voice infuse together. The best part is how the song pans out. Very very clever how the song builds up to this amazing climax with just the use of orchestra instruments. And the climax is not the ending part la, it's somewhere in the middle (for me) and...do i hear a GONG? hahaha.

I LOVE THIS SONG. must go listen okay.

Anyhoos. So, Nat King Cole's one probably sticks to the lyrics of the song a little bit more. His also incorporates a lot of orchestral instruments...not only using string instruments, but woodwind as well (think i heard the flute? clarinet?...not so sure but yeah i think so la) and ZOMG, the HARP. like, i've nv heard anyone use the harp before in their songs :S
But it was kinda cool :) Its mood is more...i dno. storybook-like i guess. Focuses more on the adventure part of things and it's cool cause u can just easily gather that from listening to it. It's definitely more mellow and takes a little bit of patience to appreciate it LOL. Howeverrrr, it's really nice after a while and i especially looove the very short violin & piano solo in the middle.

Oookay. So...there's no point to saying this la. HAHAHA. zomg. i'm such an NPG :( :( lol just in case if people were interested in this song la but dno which one to listen to or smt. altho there are a gazillion other versions i think but which i didn't bother to dwnld.

Yap, SO. getting a little lazy here, so i'd just skip the whole itunes thing la -_-" HAHAHAHAHAHA. i'd just recommend something for if y'all wna listen to smt MELLOW for you chillax-ed mood.
kla so this is not purely from me la. a lot of ppl have recommended me PRISCILLA AHN. she is SERIOUSLY awesome. just (Finally) listened to her album "A Good Day" but you really need to listen to it on a good day la. haha. need loads of patience and mood to listen one loh. but that's just me, maybe. the ultimate best song is "Dream". might've heard it on grey's anatomy n wondered hrrmmm wht's that song??? cos i know i did!! this song is mostly guitar & cello (my fav!) based. n the part where her awesome possum voice was just accompanied so simply by 3 piano notes and a few pulls of the cello is SUPER AWESOME TO THE MAX it makes me swoon. on the bus. in the morning.
...but then i will soon get sick of it...the song, i mean. :S


Okay. these people, i nv knew existed. hahaha. stole them off my sister's itunes! they're called AZURE RAY btw. didn't really listen to their whole album, but kinda screened them to find which i should add. i know i used to love "we are mice" SOOO much but i'm kinda over it hehe. "Sleep", "Don't Make a Sound", "Displaced", "Rise" and "For No One" are the ones i'd chosen out of the screen lol. very nice la all.

Yeap so that's about it....im su're another one of these types of post will be coming soon...when i start having my bouts of insanity again. or, as many people call it, "passion". i just think i damn weird la.

TO THE MONKEY

Yet another year has passed...

And u're as old as me now!!

Like, FINALLEHHH. :p

So, we've come from this - lodge form 5, aged SEVENTEEN (wahlau)

Very retarded/gundu and extremely suaku (not based solely on the pic la hahaha)

(like seriously, WHO TOOK THIS?!?!?!
...go tag on facebook summore -_-")

to this, aged 18 and a BIIIT less suaku, less gundu and finally independent

(kla, much better)

but still best of budssssss.

Let's see how our pictures portray us this year, in our final year as teens!!!!

Dang we're getting OLD.

Love yah babeh. AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY (again)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Be productive, ya????

...in the innocent way of course. i know u very HAM SAP!!

tsk tsk tsk nassssty stuff, you!

AWAKEN, THE DIABOLICAL!!

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

meet my NEWEST BESTEST BEST FRIEND!!!
(sorry, my bestest best friend)

need a better look???


MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

After spending the very very eventful morning killing ANTS with THIS:

(air freshener la)

AND THIS:


(my wallet la)

I have kept in mind THE WHOLE DAY to buy some ant poison right after school.

And for $3.50 or so, I GOT IT.

muahahahahahahahahahaha.

so the whole time i was studying in Frank Tate,

eating kompia (yums!...n thnx kim, kat, leen, ames, py) and kim's other dishes,

eating BORA-BORA,

chatting about life,

walking to the bus stop,

taking the bus home,

walking home,

I COULDN'T stop thinking about how my best friend would lure those BLASTED ants out of their hole.

TIME TO DIEEEEEEEEEEE.


kla so i think i was a bit enthu hahahahaha.

stuck HELL LOT of cellotape in the hopes of creating extra traps for them infesters.

oh and the white thing at the bottom? IS WHERE I BELIEVE THEIR NEST LIESSSSS.

stupid shit. go live in the socket-thingo. PMO.

yeah anyways so i took some time to ascertain where they originated from and started workinnnn'

and wooooh!!! the product of just a few minutes :) :) :)

positively beaming!!!

and i just can't help myself from checking every few SECONDS to see its progress

but the instruction said to leave it for 2 MONTHS.

as in, dood. it'd take 2 MONTHS to target the queen and kill 'em all.

i lack the patience or the self-control to wait 2 mths to see results.

yeap.

so i'm supposed to be studying for midsem, but HERE I AM, WATCHING ANTS DIE.

...but i gotta say it kinda provides an immense sense of satisfation though

:D

NO Cause for Celebration

The air in the kew house is SOLEMN.

...at least, that's what i think it is. cos it certainly feels like it in the LIVING ROOM (where i'm at lol). and most probably in cousin wee's room too.

so why all this sadness????

reason is that COUSIN ONG is leaving for kuching for gooooooooood :( :( :(

eh really sad la. i can so feel the pending emptiness of the house bereft of ONE person's presence (a very large person in the midst of all us girlies, mind u) and the quietness it leaves behind.

SIGH.

kew family is left with only oestrogen now. boo hoo.

Anyone remember eating chocolate right out of a stick?

Hi peeps. I've been MIA for a looooong time now (partially cause i'm just way too lazy to blog, and also because MS. LEAH LOH IS GRRRR-INGLY PUTTING OFF POSTING MY PICS IN BRISBANE!!!) leah u suck.

Anyways. Uni's started....and i'm studying loads...and life's kinda halted (not in a good way) for the moment. o sigh.

Partial emo-ness aside, got story to tell lah.
...So, I was at Laguna right (laguna's this asian supermarket for those that don't know) and GUESS WHAT I SAW?!?!?!??! i saw my childhood favourite: choki choki chocolate in a stick!!!! as in the plastic tube with a koala's face on it and milk chocolate oozing out of it.

Yeah, so guess my excitement right. and i exclaimed "OH MY GOD!!!! CHOKI CHOKI!!!!" and reached out to grab the box. (was exclaiming to aileen la LOL i'm not THAT much of a loser [sorry, losers] to shout to myself :S shame on you for thinking so)

Anyhoos. then suddenly some angmoh guy from behind me went "Is it that good?"

And i was like. trying to act nonchalant. LOL. n said that it was like a very very good childhood snack (was dying of embarrassment here please). inside i was thinking...shit. did i say choki choki THAT loud? But he asked me to explain what it was lah. so i told him it was basically chocolate out of a stick. i think then and there he prbly thought it was the most rip-off snack-thing ever in the world (one box was friggin 6 aussie dollars can u bliv it!!). so i laughed and ran off. hahaha.

Wells, from now on, i ain't gna get all excited over a stick of oozing liquid chocolate ever again. lol. And it shall be time to await on leah for pics!!! -_-" leah u better.

OMG I FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURES OF THE B&B PUDDING LA CAAANNN

WHAT IN THE WORLD -_-"

but y'all should know that it tastes SUPER FRIGGIN AWESOOOOOOOOOOME :D

The Wind is Blowin', and the Chimes are....Chimin'?

One thing i have to CONTINUOUSLY hammer into this thick skull of mine:

EXAMS
ARE
FRIIIIGGGGIIIIN
OVER!!!!!!

have to STOP feeling like i need to study liaw la -_-"
annoyance.

ANYHOOOS!!

i sound like i'm damn high now hehe cos sometimes it sinks in that i have ONE WHOLE MONTH of lazing around to do but sometimes i feel the panic of exams.

which is highly retarded.

anyways...

something ms. cha siew pau (who debuted on my blog in the previous post) said during PHYSIO PRAC EXAM.

now i'm going to place the goniometer on your

lateral FEMININE condyle

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

oops, i mean your lateral FEMURAL condyle.

oh wait, no your glenohumeral joint line.

lol!! sorry CSP
but nothing beats this.

not even placing the axillary (armpit) crutches under your ELBOW.

lookin' forward to hearing receiving more entertainment from yah, csp. aka MMM = MUFFIN MAKIN' MASTER.

and we shall be a-baking some BREAD AND BUTTER PUDDING 2mr yooo

YUUUUUUMS.

and i promise to take the bestest picture in the world :)

even if it looks like the leaning tower of pissa 100 years from now and almost touching the ground.

:D !

Good Riddance!!!

Today i say goodbye to the not so brain-friendly biomed.
go on your merry way!!
as i enjoy my days without you muahahahahaha.
though i am still to encounter some of your mates for the next 3 and a half years of my life..
that is, if i manage to scrape through to the next semester.
LOL. i'm surviving by semesters.
how sad :(

but what a way to celebrate indeed!
made MUFFFFFFFINS at ms. cha siew pau's place.
ok la so my brain was practically baking together with the muffins la.
and now i think it's chao ta alrdy.
courtesy of the very very eventful night/morning (dripping with sarcasm can)
omg la i have NEVER finished one exam at 4.30 pm,
gone straight to the computer lab to study,
get home at 10 p.m. to study some more until 2 in the morning until i just couldn't take it anymore, fell asleep and woke up at 5 a.m. to continue cheonging
then got ready and straight to the bus stop at 8 in the morning.

THEN MY BUS BROKE DOWN -_-"
but (god loves me) another one came in 3 minutes hehe
and amazingly (got loves me part II) the bus reached EARLY cos usually on other days take about an hour to get to school
cheonging session continues in the bus
motion sickness set in. wanted to puke daaaamn bad la.
so anyways, biiiiig lesson: THAT much study material is NOT meant to be done in ONE NIGHT.
and the worst part is, despite all the cheonging and stress,
i STILL came out of the exam hall thinking "okay, time to study for supplementary exam"
LOL!!!
dai la

p/s sorry that all i can talk about these few days are about exams. thats only because my LIFE revolves around exams -_-"
and the will to pass hahaha

BOO HOOOO

there's not one thing i've looked forward to THIS MUCH since i stepped on melbourne ground early in the year.

and it's only been 5-ish months since i got here -_-"

SOOOOO can't wait for the last blasted paper to come runnin' round the corner.
no time for walking or rolling.
running is ideal.

erh, so it's not a paper. it's a half-hour practical exam.
which i guess is a good thing...means i don't have to sit there for 2 hours staring at words woo hoo!!
it's 4 days away anyways. tad early to be feeling excited over it LOL.
i am so sick of studying.
and i feel so sad.
feel sad for me please.
hahaha.

i'm goin' ravin' mad.

RETAIL THERAPY I NEED YOU!!!

Dear You,

It's okay to let it all out.
But don't rush it; healing takes time.
And it's okay to feel what you feel.
Even after all this time, when you think everyone else has gotten it handled.
You're you.
I know words aren't doing much for you lately...
Words are just for you to know that you have friends around you.
Family in community.
They're just a reminder that there are people who care and would give you all the help you need.
In all that seems hopeless, hold hope.
YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY SIGNIFICANT.

What an eye-opener indeed

Went on the 'soup van' last night.
In essence it's a van...
that goes around the city to give food to the poor/homeless.
The food that go into it are leftovers from treat vans selling sandwiches and sweets to corporate people. SOUP was homemade. sure, it's not the best-tasting soup in the world...it didn't take 1 hour to make, but it sure was a labor of love. and, get this, one lady makes banana bread EVERY WEEK to give to those in need. the look on their faces when they hear you've got dessert sure tells you how much it means to them.
Anyways.
I was on the van that went 'inside' which is for the people who need food but live in shelters.
very very shabby shelters.
Imagine living your life in a room...sharing a shower and a toilet with everyone else on that floor. every single day.

I think it's been a very very long time ago since they've felt embarrassed about getting help from volunteers. I want to know their stories. Who they've been; what led them here. I'm sure no one wants to be in this situation...and even if they don't seem all that hopeful, surely they are hoping. And i pray that there's enough hope to go around. Some of them seem like they're so ready to surrender the rest of their lives to this fate. i hope its not the case. but it's easy for me to say; how can i possibly fathom what they are going through?

But...the most confronting situation was when we handed out blankets and food to those sleeping at the power station. in the cold. there was this man who was SO. YOUNG. and he kinda looks like hoobastank's lead singer. ok he REALLY does! so anyways. u can easily imagine him being a regular guy...construction worker, office worker, whatever. and here he was. sleeping on a bench in the winter chill. taking soup from a van. it was so heartbreaking how he was so so so so grateful for what we were doing for them.
i'm not even sure i can be that truly grateful for a bed. blanket. warmth. food. not until i am in his place. it's just so easy for us to take the little things for granted. cliche. but true.

And what's worse....i never knew these shelters housing all these people in need were in the city. right opposite from where i go to uni everyday. all these big townhouses were inside housing so many ppl. it's easy for ppl to say 'oh, at least the government's giving them a place to stay and ppl knock on their doors to give them food'...that their lives are good. but heck. who in the world wants to be in their position anyways? can you even survive on the barest of essentials?

What a look into the world i had never come close to seeing. What i never knew was so widespread in this city.

Kudos to the dedicated soup makers who do this every day.

What comes next???

To all the A LEVELS babies out there,

all the best from joanie for your final exams!!!!!

And let there be the birth of YET MORE doctors, EVEN MORE engineers,...A chemist (lol mel u special special) and dentists!!

Lol you can finally fit in. u'll be in uni, like the rest of us muahahaha!!! (except cyn HAHAHA. kiddins. cyn ur turn will come soooon toooo)


p/s josh, i'm sure u're so used to the *certain someone eh hem* stealing the limelight loooool
p/p/s janny, thank me for not putting up the 5c group photo. with ur tiny head squashed beneath the massive throng of people. and the tomato-ness of your face which cracks me up big time :p

I love the sound of horses' hooves on cobbled streets

Just finished watching SWEENEY TODD,
tale of the barber from hell.


And i THOROUGHLY enjoyed it!!!!

Perhaps all my expectations (or lack thereof) contributed to this lol.

Everyone said it was crap waaad.

Yea, but i still wanted to watch it anyways cause of...ya noe...undying curiosity and all. :p

Somehow before popping the dvd in, i kinda expected myself to like it cause everyone around me hated it with a passion :(

I LOVED the songs,

Story was quite meh but okay la.

Johnny Depp was quite meh also but okay la also.

And the poor dood i only remembered as professor snape throughout the whole movie was erh. snape-ey.

Okay, now i wonder why i was so excited over it. hahahaha.

it really WAS a great movie! although i can't seem to find the reasons why anymore :S

Just gotta say, though, that eating pasta whilst watching it is NOT really the brightest of ideas.

Oh, one other thing...the little kid in the movie looked like a miniature version of ZHI EN'S BROTHAAAA. oh my gosh. no kiddin. go watch and see!

Damn "ON" tonight la

No kiddin.

Lemme show u THE ULTIMATE most AWESOMEST picture in the world. universe. galaxy.

PICTURE OF THE CENTURY la!!!!

Sigh my heart is melting and pooling into a puddle on the floor.

A warm, mushy, throbbing puddle.

And it smells a lot like LURRRRVVVEEEE!!!!!


WAAAAHHHH i want to cry.

He is SO adorable!!!! (the baby, not the father hahahaha) 8 months old and no auntieS to coo over him incessantly :(

Not that he needs any more of those auntie-esque cheek-pinching and "AIYOOO ZHANG DAAA LE LA!!"

FEAR NOT!!! I am hip hop auntie who will refrain from being....overly auntie :)

I loooooove you little tyke!!!

Will see you soooooon :D


p/s WHAT did i say about him growing humongous????? not that i mind la he's damn cute that way hehehe
p/p/s yes i do realize i sound like a sadly deprived auntie....very much so indeed.
p/p/p/s despite PASSING (on the dot LOL!), i STILL fail -_-" what the crap.

Further signs of impending mumminessssss

Uh oh, this is a bad sign.

The fact that 2 hours of physio lecture DID NOT kill me because we were talking about BABIES means that it's time that i go all mummy again!!!!!!!

WAIL.

But really lah. for the first time since i'd started uni, this physio lecture was BY FAR the most useful and most interesting ever!

Sigh, babies are so cute.

Makes me miss the little one back hooome!!!


...Although he wouldn't be so little by the time i get home this year :S

Oh, not as little as he was last yr la.

Cos he's kinda...big. in a cute baby way of course :)

Clarity makes a difference for a mind that's in shambles

Whatever happened to the mythical, created-to-scare-little-kiddies being of pure evil?

Mythical.

Yet, time and time again, I see its devilish schemes working within.

A constant spiral that goes out of control unless you realize what's going on and you snap out of it. Tell it to yourself, whatever's just happened. Tell it to the one person it's truly afraid of. To stop feeling sorry for yourself, it's the most effective way of it getting to you. Stop blaming others for their mistakes; holding grudges, it's its way of making you hate. Stop, stop, stop.

Well, this mythical creature is definitely real enough to me.

And it's scary.

Cause when something you've always thought was imaginary turns out to be real, anything goes.

How i wish it could never touch me.

NOT So Over Youuuuuu

困兽之斗 by Jay Chou

Haven't heard it in years!!!
And suddenly it was played on my iPod on randommmm and now im hooked!!!

WHAT is he singing though :(
Can't understand nuts lol!
But i love love love love it!!!!!




p/s ADELAIDE totally rox my soxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
so relaxing and slowww i miss it la no kidding :(
taking the plane would be the better option hahahaha!

2 Days Ago :)

To all the babies who have pestered me to update about my lifeeeee,
I'M UPDATING!! yayyy :)

...about something that'd happened 2 days ago lol.

and that something is OBVIOUSLY (except to all u lousy friends out there...haha kidding) MY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!! :D

so, right, ms. ellyn yiin and sarah and teo teo and christabel and jocelyn and melody and charline (CHARS i so love your place totally should've invited myself to it way earlier :p) gave me and christabel a joint surprise birthday bbq thing!! so sweet right i noe. haha. welllls, as usual i have no pics LOL!!! so i shall let u in on what i got from them! :)

from ellyn and sarah :)
I WILL WEAR I PROMISE

jocelyn and melody :)

the bag containing the stationery
if you don't think its cute, THERE'S SMT SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH YOU!!!

And of course there was crazy awesome barbecue food hehe aaaaannnndddd a super duper yummy cake!! :)

FROM THE PHYSIOS
(you know who you are!!!!)

super gila humongous pencil case
in my faaaavourite color!!!!
:)
What the purple pencil case contains
DO U NOTICE A PATTERN HERE?
hahaha.
i heart stationery :)
thnx guyyyssss

doood so cute
from Jasmin
loads of chocolatey goodness!
and the cutest devil in the worldddd heh

Here concludes the physio's section :p
altho i must include Carmen who'd given me a Jodi Piccoult book.
No pic tho paiseh

thank you I Sun!
now that i know you think i'm stinky :(
i can go around bein nice-smelling forever!!!

Kat, YOU KNOW ME WELL :p

AND...I SAVED THIS FOR LAST....

HAHAHAHAHA AMY!!!!!!!!
super amusing la!!
thnx for trying to find a KEMBARA.
sorry i doubt the car would ever make it out of its case tho.
hahaha i'm not a toy person!
but it SURE makes good decoration :p

To all the people who bought the cake and came to dine with me (hahaha) and are not mentioned here, THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH TOOO!!!

Anyways...

At 12 a.m., 5th April 2009,
my sister came home with another super duper awesomely yummy birthday cake :)

with gifts to boot!!

:D
thnx nana & jennn
so beautiful right i knowww
BUT NOW I'M APPLE-IZED!!!
o.O

yes na, i will TRY to learn the gila babi difficult but extremely nice song.
after my exams.
hehehe!
thnx anywaysss

OF COURSE i wouldn't forget all you people who are not in melbourne and who wished me a happy bday and who wouldn't stop reminding me that it's MY LAST YEAR AS A TEEEEEN

and i have to especially thank my bestest bestie in the whole wide world (LOL so sehkia but so true) who is in msia :( because she made the most amazing picture thingo thingo for me!!!!! altho why so cheapo one ur blog cannot copy pics -_-" lauyaaaa. BUT THNX MONKEY DOODLES!!!!!

and to ms spinky who called ALL THE WAY FROM SINGAPORE to chat!!! dooood. thank you babeh!!!

and of course mandy from tassie and ju from perth :) :) :)

and the texts!!

(this is a lot of 'and's...)

THANK YOU ALLLLLL!!!!!

so here concludes my update :)

p/s i SO totally cannot say i've nv failed in my life anymore!!
p/p/s WAILLLL

The Little Manja Boy

This is a tribute to our little Monster
with the humongous heart
(not a very good pic he looks like he jz rummaged thru the bin or smt lol)

We will always remember the day he STOLE all of his mummy's nutrients
and grew twice the size of his fellow siblings
became the fattest, pudgiest puppy we've ever seen
like a monsterrrr!!!!!
haha
and he grew up to STILL be the biggest in the bunch lol

Despite his name
he is extreeeemely sweet
will ALWAYS rmb the day he saved Perry who'd fallen into the empty concrete aquarium thing (kinda forgot wad its called -_-") ok so technically monster did not save him like. drag him out la but he DID lead us to him. and he stayed outside the whole night to teman perry i think.


Yea, and so the title suggests, he is totally manja :)
in a good way.
So eager to please.
So loveable and huggable!!!
And forever excited to greet you when u come back.
Even if u've been gone a yr :(
oh, and I absolutely love his tail. the tail that VIBRATES and shakes from side to side (cos its curled up yo)
sigh his waggy waggy tail.

Daddy loves him to bits cos he is STRONG AND MIGHTEHHH. (and manja)
got hit by motor vehicles a total of 3 times in his lifetime.
and not once did he show weakness.
totally. amazing. innit?

I could go on forever...
But, like daddy so aptly put it,
"I'm so sorry we lost a good friend"

:(

omg

i jz finished watching.

and it wasn't too bad. cos it's SOOOOO amusing!!!

LOL.

so the guy wanted to eat her (literally) throughout the movie. hahaha.

was that the story line? yea it was. with a tiiiiny bit of action fighting.

oh anyways. yea. and the girl just KEPT tempting him to eat her. like hellloooo.

and her expression changed, like, twice. which is a good thing. beats looking at her stoned face for 2 hrs la.

totally understand why he said his corny line (refer below) liaw. COS HE'S AN ADDICT tsk tsk tsk. wonder if there's an underlying message or smt.

LOVE CAN CONQUER ADDICTION.

so all u addicts out there, go find loooove yo. it's the ultimate high.

so it seems.


p/s edward's dad is seriously hot la!!!!!

I TOTALLY understand

In the process of watching TWILIGHT

AND I WANT TO DIE ALREADY.

it's like. GAH why is the girl's face frozen in ONE. EXPRESSION. THROUGOUT. THE. 45 MINUTES. OF. THE. 2. HOUR. SHOW?!

if she keeps this up i seriously am gna die.

edward cullen is eeeky (i'm sorry to all the fans out there).

his DAD looks 1000000000 times better than him.

WHY IS HE SO EMO??

AND CHEESY!!!!

Ed: "I don't have the strength to keep away from you"
Bella: "Then don't"

LOL.

Hrm. Shall resume watching. I'm only at 45 minutes haha.

the curious in me wants to see how it goes. maaaaybe it gets better, progressively????

is that why people love it so much???

seriously though, if her face stays the same, i will cringe gao gao until my face freezes as well.

-_-"

Everybody has something to hate

i HATE killing spiders.

to the max.

and the sad thing is...melbourne (more specifcally, MY HOUSE) has tons and tons of spiders that just may attack me in my sleep!!!

the only thing i can do is KILL THEM. can't be too sure if they're poisonous or not right?

so anyways. i hate killing spiders because they JUST DON'T DIE!!!!!

like. WHACK. one leg falls off.

WHACK WHACK. another leg falls off but the body is just sliiightly squished.

TRIPLE WHACK. it falls flat. BUT (yes, there is a but -_-") IT TWITCHES IN PAINNNNN.

:(

so yeah. i whack it a few more times for good measure. so that it's not like..semi-conscious or whatever and hence be in pain.

poor, poor life-endangerers. but heck. my life's more important than yours, spidies.

so attack me and you die. sigh the circle of life.

somebodeh, PLEASE do something about spiders in aussie!!! seriously man. i find them EVERYWHERE. in my bed, in my toilet, in the living room, at the fireplace. -_-" it's scary.

another moment...

i love extremely suicidal-sounding songs -_-"

n it takes me suuuper damn long to actually find happy songs okay.

issit the EMO IN ME (lol) or is it just human nature...us cynical, pessimistic creatures??

and even the happy tunes that i absolutely love have emo lyrics behind them.

so, yeah. issit just me??? or is everybody the same??

HRRRMMMM.

To

HAHAHAHA mels that pic STILL cracks me up!!

it is extremely cute and is aptly titled "HOW BIZZARE" in my pictures folder :D

lol anyways...

having been through it, i must tell you it ain't that great!! :p but do enjoy it though...enjoy EVERY single birthday u have :) :)

HAPPY 18TH BDAY
BABEH!!!!

of bond girls and romance

went stationery shopping today!!
i realize how excited i am over stationery. I KNOW. but it seriously is nice, buying stationery LOL.
anyways.
teo teo (aka future fellow melbournian aka famous [no kiddin] sushi maker aka current tenant of the place i'm gna crash at for the nxt few years or so :D :D :D ) came to pick me up in her kickassssss road-dominating car.
so u can't see her tiny face from the pai kia tinted windshield lol.
the road bully herself.

don't be fooled okay. she can wallop u n crush u on the road whenever she feels like.

confirm.

TEO I LOVE UR KICKASS DRIVING TOO.

anyways, i digress :)

2mr is valentines!!! which i have nothing to be excited over LOL bcos i'll be home alone watching movies. NOT THAT I MIND. oh, and packing. which i absolutely do mind. -.- packing.

anyhoooos. here's a snippet of the family's conversation over dinner.


Mom: (to bro and i) Waaaahhhh if your daddy gives me something for valentines ahhh, BIG RAIN WILL FALL DOWN (direct translation, mind you. think mom was opting for something a little more dramatic...along the lines of...the SKY will fall down but dunno why also that came out lol!)


Dad: *semi-smug face - with raised eyebrows, arms folded behind head, oh and the grin* GOOOOT. already book lohhhhh.


Mom: Really meh?!?!?! *mom in absolute disbelief* Where!!


Dad: Secret Garden.


Me: BA WHY U SAY?!?!?!


Mom: How much?


Dad: 100.


Me: -_-


Mom: *gleefully, though with futile attempt to wipe grin from face, resumes potato-peeling*


Aww.

Wells, there is a lesson in this. lol.
i would NEVER have expected my dad to be the romantic type, but WHOA he sure proved me wrong!!!! guess there is always a strand of romantic fibre in every being :) :) :)
Even my daddy who never, EVER smiles in pictures -.-
Maybe he'd prove me wrong again one day tooo :D

HAPPY EARLY VALENTINES DAY Y'ALL!

All I Want to Say Is....

I



TO

BITSSSSSSSSS!!!

if u do not know who they are, SHAME ON YOU.

thats them in their younger years btw.

ugh. am feeling sooooo sigh-ley into their music right now that i just feel i am gna burst out crying at any moment.

my hormones are in a VERY frightfully fragile state -.-

scary.

anyways...i present to you the BEST VID IN THE WORLD. OF THE CENTURY.

best song EVERRRR.  :)

emo too LOL.

Death Cab For Cutie - A Lack Of Color


enjoy