Sighs, sometimes things just do not go as planned.

:(

but, being my optimistic and EXTREMELY hopeful self (which kinda sucks sometimes cause it intensifies the disappointment and cacatness of something gone wrong)...

i will hope and hope and hope that i will end up at the same destination.

just via another, albeit lengthy and mahuan (-_-"), route.

yeah but i was just disappointed for a whole bloody day...and it made me reconsider doing it.

i have now (a few days later) decided to just GO FOR IT. but i don't know how. lol.

so, i guess, we shall wait and seeeeeee.

Signs of Aging :(

O WAIL my achy-breaky....heart?

NOT.

...my achy-breaky BONES!!!

my bones are cracking and protesting (very very loudly, mind you) every time i move!!! seeeeriously it is so terrible i cannot put into words the extent of it. :( and i'm so young boo hoo.

what to do, oh what to do.

this is slightly depressing, seeing as how i'm most probably gonna be one of the first first first first people in my age range to get arthritis or smt choichoichoi!!

i should start doing stretches every morning/night like my good old daddy does. WHOAH my dad is 1000000 gabillion times more flexible than me. which kinda kills it even more for me. sighs.

ON ANOTHER NOTE,

i can't believe inglorious basterds did not win best motion picture!!!!! i mean, like SERIOUSLY. avatar is gooood and all, but heck. ain't as good and entertaining as inglorious basterdsssss. potong steam :(

oh, ON ANOTHER ANOTHER NOTE, :) :) :)

ok there isn't another note. the note is the same.

but just a random...i dno, fact or something.
that my piano teacher's house is officially kampung saya nombor dua. it's INSANE how many times i pop over to her place for things exam-related and not even have actual piano lessons. but, thank god, it's all over tomorrow morning. enrollment is OFFICIAL as of 8.00 am whew. aaaand i'd been advised to keep my phone switched on and super-glued to my side the second i wake up cause my teacher's paranoid and a little OCD lol!! but god bless her heart she is the awesomest piano teacher in the world :)

hrm. enough weirdness. gotta go lim 7-layer (zomg) teh now heh heh hehhh.

O DIVINE POWER!

yes, i need help.

i need LOADS of help.

charging ahead despite:
1. my lack of discipline...which contributes to (ok it probably is the sole cause of : )
2. my lack of confidence in my studies and whatever else i'm doing...which happens to be the piano exam i feel i have an extreeeemely high probability of failing.

but surprisingly, people do not seem to think so. surprising, because i seriously am no good :S
hence, O DIVINE POWER. make it so that i create and integrate and FULFILL the very belated new year's resolution that is to use my time wisely. -_-"

i think i'm doing the right thing, at least. there's no other time like the present, they say. i don't think i'd ever get around to completing this 2-year goal if i don't take the initiative to enrol. hrrrmmm.

so, right now, i'm doing research for my programme notes. and wowww reading all these stuff about the pieces really kinda brings them composers to life! i mean, it's easy to play the songs and feel what u feel, often forgetting that there was a living human being behind these songs...and how real events led to their amazing creations! somehow (cause usually i think it gila cheesy)  i find the fact that beethoven wrote his "moonlight sonata" for his, i dno, love of his life is so frikkin sweet. so romantic-ky. that his love is printed on a page everywhere in the world!! plus the song is so beautiful. :):):):)

life as of now is piano-filled and not much else besides bumming and hanging out :p

and worrying if i can pull it all of nxt yr.

thomas the choo choo train shall be my inspiration. :D


p/s being bitten to death by bloody mosquitoes!
will turn into blotchy bulbous human if they don't just drop off and die!!!

p/p/s stupid sausages bit holes into my favourite dress. -_-"