Rewind, Playback.

You

have got to stop torturing yourself.

Mental Overdrive

There are things in life that I'm not proud of.

This is one of them.

How could I have so carelessly discarded my pride?


I may be making something out of nothing.

But I'm sorry.

Pride is something I hold on to with clenched fists.

Perhaps a little too dearly.

So much so that it has become a torment.

The source of my inner conflicts.

Which seem to become more apparent, more frequent these days.



Without fail.


You seem to bring out the worst in me.

Invisible

You don't see

me gnash my teeth while i'm smiling

You don't hear

the malice behind my laughter

You do not get the privilege of treating me as you please
according to your mood.

So, please, save me all this shit

by keeping this in mind.

The Big 2-1

This picture very precisely portrays my shock on Friday night.

What a ruse! 

...Twice in a matter of 5 days, I shamefacedly say :(

Why am i so gullible??

But hey, innocence is hard to come by. Better appreciate it before it's gone!

So.

21. 

Says everyone, marks the beginning of my adult life.

Says everyone, I'm "all grown up" now. Speaking of which, never have I seen so many messages with the words "big girl" in them with absolutely no intention of taking jabs at my physique (although I'm sure Mr. William Wong and Mr. Ho Han Khee would beg to differ -__-)

It's scary to think that, yep, the time has come. I'm officially a twenty-something. Not twenty...twenty-something...

And at twenty-one, I'm glad to say that there are actually a lot of individuals here with me that I actually really give a damn about. And they, me (at least, that's what I think. Don't let me down!).

Really cool to see everyone from different parts of my life collide on one special night :) 

And for that, I am beyond grateful for you people who put it all together and pulled it off flawlessly!

Thanks for the Friday night, the Saturday night, the Tuesday night, the Wednesday night.

The wishes,

the gifts,

the meaningful conversations.

Definitely one of my more tiring weeks, but it sure was worth it!