Underground

Just feel like sticking my head in a pit of sand.
Drown out the noise.
Drown out the sights.

The thing is, all the sights and sounds are in my head.

What to do, oh what to do.

Maybe I should just lie here for a while.

Trip Down Memory Lane

Whilst looking for a picture of the (omigosh) most embarrassing "cake" I've ever made in my life,
I read some of my really really old posts from way back when.
Coupled with the world's best emo piano song, "Craig Armstrong - Glasgow Love Theme" it kinda shifted something in me.
Not too sure what it is yet, at the moment.
But it's sort of a feeling...that time flies. It really does.

Anyways, to add to this somber, somber note,
I chanced upon this:

I miss this little champ.

Still do and always will.

Sigh.

I want a perfect body,

I want a perfect soul.

I want you to notice when I'm not around.

So very special;

I wish I was special.

All the sentimental bull

Some days i am fine, i get by comfortably, i do not stop and think.

Some minutes i am in a whirlwind of emotions, of confusion, of questioning, of doubt, of certainty.

Some days i ache.

Some days i choose to ignore.

Some days i choose to dwell.

Today i sit and dwell.

We'll see how it goes, won't we?

Daily dose of cliche: I will wear my heart upon my sleeve. At least, i will try.

Quiet

Sometimes, a little alone time is nice.

Like it is now.

Sometimes, it is just.....

Unbearable.

Like it was, till 5 minutes ago.

It just takes some getting used to :)

Daily dose of cliche: Love me, for me.

Confidence

Nothing is impossible for those that believe.

Nothing is impossible for our god.

I believe in you.

Open hearts, open minds.

That's all it takes.

Open hearts, open minds.

Let the barriers break.

Slice through the walls of unbelief.

Of instant doubt.

Of instant suspicion.

Wouldn't hurt to believe.

Who knows what you could be missing out on.

In Awe

It never ceases to amaze me.

On the road to happy.

Hang in there.

Should probably stop being so cryptic.

I know what I'm talking about.

I hope that one day, you do too. :)

Vulnerability is an issue.

Daily dose of cliche: Smile, and the whole world smiles with you.

Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Ever seen me frustrated?

This is it.

Seems like i'm fucking bipolar right now.

Incoherent

There's a massive brick wall

blocking me from you.

Smash it.

Reconnect.

Really really need to.

really really need you.

These thoughts are unrelenting.

Not feeling too well.

Mentally,

Emotionally,

Spiritually.

My heart's not in the right place.
At all.

Objectivity.